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Have been playing the city games in China for about a decade, I came to Australia and that makes my straying dream nearly come true. But I miss my homwtown, a place they call Jiang Nan. Even though I am here enjoying the alien air and langscapes, my heart is always with China.

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After two friends and I took a house in a suburb area of Australia, the real life continues with stressful paces and extra entertainments. Life can never stop, so does the sunshine.

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new hair style 24 Aug 2007 |

These days i am so busy with the assignments because the due day is coming. Not so many news...I am learning to be not so clinging, to bury my emotion in the depth of my heart.
In the evening, i went to Maggie's house to let her cut my hair. She made a new hair style for me, it looks very fashionable and beautiful, but it should be very difficult to make such a style.
It is different from the previous "onion" style. But i would try!

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first KTV 20 Aug 2007 |

今天晚上David约我跟wendy去boxhill的“蒲点”唱K了。
小子也没告诉我是她姐生日，不过到场的人挺多，大家都是单身。
在卡拉OK拉风的都是声姿飒爽的人，而我唱歌还是比较在行的。
所以今天玩的挺舒服，大家都挺和善。
令我惊奇的是，这里的包厢里的歌星歌曲要比国内全好多，偏远的歌曲也能找到。
在外一只烟抽完，我点的歌曲他们都定格起来，等我回去唱；我不会喝酒，也没有受到强迫。
相比国内，可是舒服多了。
看来，单身还是有好处的。
自由。
直到凌晨4点，大家才散伙。可怜david还要送我跟wendy回家。
倒头就睡。
千手观音

集体照

可爱一家
后面那俩在干吗
余文乐跟佘诗曼
可爱为女子

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great ocean road 18 Aug 2007 |

I have missed a few days' diaries because i do not wanna remember or i was just too exhausted to write something. But i have to forget those should be forgotten. I remembered a few days ago i gave her a phone and expressed my love for her but she replied that she had already gotten a boy friend. That night, i suddenly admired for my courage and pouring talkativeness; i got rid of my timidness, even though i suffered insomnia that night but i had no regret. After all, love cannot be compelled. This is my destiny, i am doomed to suffer that. But i have to get through this, i should not be depressed. The truth is that, i really like this girl. Wish her good happiness.
Today, Sven shouted into my room and called me to go to Great Ocean Road. I didn't waste many minutes to rush out with Sven and Brooks. Sven bought a new car a few days ago and he would like to show off himself. Actually it took us more than 2 hours to go there and we had lunch during the way to there. We all had a misunderstanding about the time we would spend on the way! Because Great Ocean Road is really a long way and we spent above 8 hours in the car and about 2 hours outside. But the landscapes really gave me a big surprise. It is so beautiful, the short beaches, the blue sky and sea, the cliffs, the flowers, the grasslands all gave me impressive shock. I really enjoyed these places of interest. But along that road, we got a little lost when we went back home. But finally we make our way home. The darkness could not shift my favorable impression about today excluding the inconstant weather. I remembered that when we drove fast in the darkness, there were no other cars in that kind of countryside road and we saw two kangaroos running in the road and we all cheered cause that was the first time for us to see the kangaroos!
We got at home at about 10 PM. I really enjoyed today. But it was a little pity that my digital camera ran out of battery when we finally found the 12 Apostles. The pictures shoot by my cellphone were not so clear. This was a big pit. But we decided we would go to Great Ocean Road for a second or a third time.
I find some introduction for the Great Ocean Road:
Geelong: 75km (47 miles) SW of Melbourne; Torquay: 94km (58 miles) SW of Melbourne; Port Campbell National Park: 285km (177 miles) SW of Melbourne; Peterborough: 200km (124 miles) SW of Melbourne; Warrnambool: 263km (163 miles) SW of Melbourne.
The Great Ocean Road -- which hugs the coast from Torquay through Anglesea, Lorne, Apollo Bay, Port Campbell, and Peterborough, until it ends at Warrnambool -- is one of Australia's most spectacular drives. The scenery along the 106km (66-mile) route includes huge cliffs, ocean vistas, beaches, rainforests, and some incredible rock formations. The most spectacular section is the 27km (17-mile) stretch between Princeton (the start of Port Campbell National Park) and Peterborough. The settlements along the highway are small, but they offer a number of accommodations choices.
The best way to travel along the Great Ocean Road is to drive yourself at a leisurely pace, stopping wherever your fancy takes you. The main attractions are in the coastal Port Campbell National Park, so don't be surprised if you're not overly impressed until you get there. If you are traveling on to Adelaide, you could stop off for 1 night along the Great Ocean Road and spend another night in the Coorong in South Australia.
departing

blue sea blue sky

normal parrots and weird Brooks

rainbow

green grassland

lonely stone waiting for another

driver Sven and Brooks

great backagate water
always green
the gate to the heaven
apostles are just stones
shlter in the sunshine

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library 15 Aug 2007 |

These two days, i spent reviewing textbooks and class sources in the Matheson library. Each day Davidsai came to my house and we went together. Wendy joined us for two days and Sara joined today. But frankly speaking, it was a little noisy in that room where many people could talk with each other. So actually my studying was not so effective but at least i had done the assignment with the cooperation with them.
Um, it was not so colorful these two days and it was even a little boring. But i had no way to make it more colorful and the studying is supposed to be paramount.
In the evening, i talked with my mother and told her i had thought to go back to China when the spring festival would come. But she refused and again expressed the indigence and hardness to run our business, that time i was a little angry and disconnected our video chatting. She always acts like that, so pessimistic and timid, and my characteristic almost inherited her! But it is OK, i am deemed to be a vagabond. I wound not go home, just stay here with loneliness. But i am dreaming of going to Sydney and Brisbane!

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first time 13 Aug 2007 |

最近好转。雨过天晴。
也突然想到一句话，真正喜欢一个人是不会在乎得到什么。
从没想到原来我也是个执着的人，还是感情的突然爆发引发的异常行为。不得而知。
但真不伤心了。最多唏嘘，最多遗憾，最多还有点影子。
星期日回clayton送她回家了。别问我在干什么。连我自己也不知道了。
胸口的咳嗽最近猛烧，早睡早起的习惯依然继续。
今天起来晨跑了，十分钟就累的我想趴下。
原来我的身体竟然这么差了，想想真恐怖。
下午一天泡图书馆去了，而且去的caulfield。
我似乎对那比对clayton有感觉，不知道为什么。
我突然想起一句可以放在小说里的句子：
虽然你有男朋友了，我只希望你心里的1%能留给我，我会给你100%。
哇，这样的句子都能被我想到。该放在《怜花传说》里。
今天本来想在图书馆续写下去的，但是用功过头了，没想到写。

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memo 10 Aug 2007 |


关于今天，我本可以不写，因为总有发霉的一天，到时就挥发地无影无踪，只是，我不想。多年以后再看，这也算是澳洲生活的一个组成部分，莞尔一笑或许也值得。
我不知道对她的感觉是什么，只是生活中时而会突然想起她。这是喜欢吗？我不明白。
所以我发了一封邮件，借机表白，然而，她的一句：我已经有男朋友，让我梗塞。
至少我知道她不讨厌我，上课经常坐我身边，我喜欢看她乖乖的表情，可爱的笑容。
然而都结束了。
这么多年了，上天都没垂怜过我，我已经习惯了。
这么多年了，每隔几年我才会喜欢上一个人，原来终究是一个人的游戏。
所以任性，所以毫无拘束，所以玩世不恭，因为即使我不这样，我也知道未必就有好的结果。
这么多年了，我终于没有再隐瞒我的感情，这是我的进步；我无所谓后悔，肚子里消化的情感太多了，容易拉泄。
好累。在人前挂着永久的笑脸，回家晚上却经常忧郁。这是我从小就有的习癖，天生的。
我心里的伤悲，这个世界怕没几个人知道了，连父母都一点不了解我。
突然重新无数遍地放《寂寞的季节》，寂寞的感觉重新混绕在我的血液。我知道，这辈子，寂寞就看上我了。
原来那些经久不衰的爱情能成为经典，是因为实在太稀罕了。
我这样的人，又怎能攀的上去？
所以今天我去据说是南半球最大的购物中心花RMB700块买了一副墨镜。
墨镜有两个主要作用，扮酷，隐藏悲伤。我是属于后者。
我想以后该怎么办？当然重新寻找目标了，我是个痴情的人，但那并不代表我傻。
以后上课还是会天天见面，也许她还会坐我身边，也许还会一起吃饭。
我只希望悲伤仅限今天。

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struggle 9 Aug 2007 |

old calculator

corner of China Town


in the immigration office

special view

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stand up 7 Aug 2007 |

I am so tired today. But i remember that i fell asleep not so late yesterday night. I always woke up on 7 in the morning. Yep, my quality of slumber has never been good since i was a child. I do not know the reasons. When i lie on the bed i always have a lot of things to recall and with the increase of the life experiences and memories, it is a bit harder for me to fall asleep deeply.
Actually the life is a little boring, not so interesting as in the bridging program. Chatting with old friends, with those whom i can ignore, whom turn up suddenly, whom i will never talk with again.
I went to the library at CL campus and went over some powerpoint materials for about 2 hours. Really so tired, but it is the first time for me to study there.
I just wanna sleep and sleep, but i cannot neglect my studying, which left me a lot of things to do. I must fight with my laziness and large amounts of pages.
To do, or not to do, that is a question.
I did it, but i have regretted for that.
At night, Andy and Brodie came to see me, so glad to see them, make me feel so happy. Brodie is really a good local man,haha.
A funny picture is illustrated below, have fun with it:)


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what is tedium 5 Aug 2007 |

这两天超级累，该死的LOCAL老师语速如弹珠，我这才知道孟加拉的老头还真可爱。
课上几乎是眼睛半闭半睁着，而且课件基本没用，老师都是自由发挥。
今天还是monash的OPEN DAY，宣传挺猛，人影稀疏。
今天发了一封邮件，因为实在无法启齿。
不管结果怎么样，都是云淡风轻了，本无拥有什么，谈不上失去。
水瓶座的人，还是很看得开的。
况且，眼睛看到的美好未必就是抽丝之后的美好，常常不开心，那是因为假象。
我希望这个周末之后，要么回归，要么幸福。
张艺说，一无所有的人，是最快乐的。
今天去西祠，才知道张艺已经34岁了。好快。
我还记得在南京听她电台的时候，一个典型的病态女子的声音。
过去了。


worth 7$?

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miss 4 Aug 2007 |

yep, it is not lonely when you are alone, it is lonely when you are missing someone.
The missing days will come to an end, where i could get back to the normal life, enjoy the free and unconstrained life.
But i cannot cheat myself, but i do not believe my own eyes, but i do not think happiness will belong to me, but i have been used to my current life, but i cannot distinguish the reality and dream, but i cannot ignore other things beyond that i am missing, but i have no confidence in myself, but i always fail, in the process to be happy, to be full, to be delightful.
Let my parents down, let it go. I hate this kind of life, but i cannot escape from it. I wanna be free and free without being locked by anything.
But i cannot. This is the question.
Time will erase it......

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fill my room 1 Aug 2007 |

英文写得好累，虽然实属无奈，但也是不得已而为之。
最近过得很惬意，但也虚晃。
包括前两天去某个garage sale搬回个小柜子，重的要死，路人的笑容都挺诡异。
打个电话回家，问老妈蒸鸡腿的做法。
马上尝试，果然够味，我是个很容易满足的人。
发现在这呆长了，对澳币的感觉也麻木了，所以今天又去boxhill搬回了一台89￥的激光打印机。
学习与身体，挺重要。
发现持续几天的早睡，已经让我上瘾，不到9点，两眼发花。
生活即使一天，也很漫长，文字只是表象。
如同我爱你，可是许多东西，言语远远不够力道。
左肩膀老是酸，年少轻狂的后果。呵呵。
blue sky

5$ cabinet

one corner in Springvale

bus station in Boxhill centro

my beautiful room

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