sick for what
I have to admit that i am sick, not so serious,but i could not stop snivelling and sometimes that made me feel dizzy and sleepy. I suddenly remembered that at the night the day before yesterday, when i went to sleep it was too hot in the quilt to fall asleep so i raised one corner of the quilt...that might result in the undermining situation.
Shit...each time when i was in sick i always thought about loneliness, depression, death,darkness, suicide..i could not stand myself. maybe one day one girl would stay beside me and take care of me, that sounds happy but when?when?when? So many times have been killed, so many ages have been spent, nothing about love occurred to me.
Hey, stop the pessimistic thoughts, everything will be all right. Of course, i would not show my weakness and sadness to people around me, but there should be a sad me inside my body. I can not control it when i come across bad things. Otherwise, more or less i had given up something which should have made me happy,but i always regretted after that happened.
I have gotten sick, stick to the chair, watch some kind of movies, wait for the comfort and sound easement.
Labels: life in Australia
